Two women, Two Hemispheres, Two diseases, Same Fears, Doubts and Worries: A Tale of how an Autoimmune Disease and Cancer Has Affected Us
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I havent written anything in this blog for ages. It hasn’t been because I haven’t thought about writing posts, I have. It just seems to evade me to actually write them down. I was wondering about this and asking myself, why haven’t I been able to tell you about some of my latest health issues....
I havent written anything in this blog for ages. It hasn’t been because I haven’t thought about writing posts, I have. It just seems to evade me to actually write them down.
I was wondering about this and asking myself, why haven’t I been able to tell you about some of my latest health issues. Like the fact that I had some bloods done lately that found an auto antibody called PMscl which basically means I now seem to have an overlap disease, schelraderma. And this (and I need to confirm this once I have my next consultancy appointment) means I have a rare form of dermatomyositis called schleradermatomyositis (say that while eating an apple!). It’s so rare there isn’t even an article about it in Wikipedia.
So why haven’t I written more blog posts of late?
I think it is because I am starting to feel better (with, or without, the schleraderma).
I am back at work full time (although often that really takes it out of me and I get exhausted).
I feel a lot stronger in myself.
I am managing to do 4 minutes on the cross trainer, twice, most days.
I can walk much further.
I am even going to my first business meeting next week: It’s been at least 10 months since I was able to, not only travel to a meeting, but actually have the strength and stamina to sit though one. It’s in london at Imperial College and its also signficant as it’s the end of a 2 year project I’ve been involved in that I’ve somehow managed, through the illness, to stay afloat with.
Myself and Suz started this blog to help us cope with a shocking and difficult reality, of being very sick. This blog and the people who read it and had conversations with me about the trials and tribulations I wrote about, has helped me to get through what has been, probably, the most difficult year of my life, both emotionally and physically.
I know I’m not completely better and it’s an incurable disease anyway, so will rear its very ugly head from time to time, but for now, I am moving forward. Dermatomyostis may be clinging onto my shirt tails and causing some drag, but I’ll wear some skates and pull it along with me, I will no longer let it control me, I want to live.
So my blogosphere friends, I say, for now, au revoir and thank you for being there with me: I wish you all, health, love, happiness and peace.
2013 is the year for new beginnings. It is the year for fresh challenges, new energies and a future that is about looking forward to better things. Notwithstanding how tough 2012 was, I guess I feel like I have learnt a lot – about myself as much as anything else. And in that respect I...
2013 is the year for new beginnings. It is the year for fresh challenges, new energies and a future that is about looking forward to better things. Notwithstanding how tough 2012 was, I guess I feel like I have learnt a lot – about myself as much as anything else. And in that respect I feel grateful and indeed proud to know that even as I get older there is more to learn. After all, life is a journey and it would be terribly boring if the landscape was dull and the road predictable. When things are easy the temptation is always to be complacent and expectant – that things will just be OK. And in the end OK is enough – by default it is the standard. In my view OK is simply not good enough – and for that I am grateful that my life has been nothing short of extraordinary – tough lots of times but worth it all the same.
So in writing this note I want to reflect on what I have learnt in what is easily the toughest year of my life.
The trials and tribulations of 2012 have taught me:
There you have somethings that I got out of last year. On the practical side – nausea passes, hair grows back, your appetite returns, your mouth eventually stops hurting,the flavour of food returns, life goes on – and on.
So now the final update
So life is busy and full again – but not too full for me to reflect on how important it is to make time for yourself and to never take things for granted.
Writing this blog with Sus has been a lifeline – it was just the writing that mattered. Not that anyone was listening. It is amazing just how therapeutic it is just to hear yourself articulate your thoughts – in words and in print. never under estimate the power of conversation. And that is where it all started – the desire to start a conversation. And for now there is not much else to say – except thank you, from the bottom of my heart, to everyone that joined in.
All my love and I wish you all a happy and fulfilling life. I know that mine is.
If you have been reading this blog, you’ll know I’ve got a bit of a gammy leg. My neurologist said he didn’t know about legs so I needed to see a rheumatologist – so my GP had to set up an appointment and it took a few weeks (the wonders of the NHS). Yesterday I...
If you have been reading this blog, you’ll know I’ve got a bit of a gammy leg.
My neurologist said he didn’t know about legs so I needed to see a rheumatologist – so my GP had to set up an appointment and it took a few weeks (the wonders of the NHS). Yesterday I saw a rhuematologist at the ‘Freemans hospital’ in Newcasle upon Tyne.
In case you don’t know, my gammy leg swells up both in the front and the back of the knee and into the thigh. The back is most likely a Bakers Cyst. But the front, the doctor isn’t sure if it’s an independent problem, or connected to the cyst. The Bakers cyst isn’t that big a deal, to be honest, it’s stiff more than sore, but the front swelling, well that’s another thing altogether and affects my muscle above the knee right up the length of the thigh and that really hurts! All I’ll say is that analgesics don’t even touch it, but heat packs are great, they sooth it, thank god for heat packs.
The rheumatologist did an examination of my legs and came to the conclusion that something wasn’t right with my knee, but that she had never seen this in dermatomyositis before – she’s one of the north of England specialists in the disease, so I take her word for it. So, she offered me an MRI, or treatment and then an MRI if treatment didn’t work. I took the latter as I really wanted/hoped for relief. The ‘treatment’ involved inserting a rather large needle into my knee and injecting steroids in. It wasn’t too bad because my knee was anaesthetised (bit like getting a filing at the dentist).
I came home and within hours my knee had swollen up and the bakers cyst appeared (it sort of ‘pops’ out) and my leg was extremely painful. I had to resort to the heat packs again. I called the doctor and she said it was most likely a reaction to the steroids and it would settle down, which Im pleased to say, it has.
SO, the point of his post is really just to give you an update on the whole gammy leg episode and where I am at with it. To tell the truth, the whole thing depresses me, it stops me from building up my strength – if I do anything much, I end up with a very painful leg that I have to keep off for days. Dermatomyositis is an insidious disease that relentlessly attacks not just your muscles but your very being. I’ve not given up though, Im still fighting it and I’m determined to win. Fingers crossed this treatment works, then its onwards and upwards, no more gammy leg tales…
Oh and before I go, for your delight, here’s another ‘leg’ I found in the field next to our house (not sure who had been chomping on it):
Well it doesn’t at the minute, at least the vegetable patch that I used to love to tend doesn’t. The pictures above were taken about 3 years ago – a good harvest that year. Around this time of the year (in the northern hemisphere anyway) thoughts wander to little green heads, poking out of their...
Well it doesn’t at the minute, at least the vegetable patch that I used to love to tend doesn’t.
The pictures above were taken about 3 years ago – a good harvest that year.
Around this time of the year (in the northern hemisphere anyway) thoughts wander to little green heads, poking out of their soil beds, preparing to become delicious vegetables to adorn my plate in a few months time.
Last year at this time, unlike my normal routine, I did not plant any tomatoes, or prepare for various other germinations to happen. I had a feeling things weren’t right. At that time I only really had a rash, but I did keep getting various infections, stomach, respiratory and urinary tract. Might be a coincidence and not be connected to the autoimmune condition, but I had a series of them and felt very unwell, on and off for months. If I hadn’t been suffering from them, I may have started to plant out my vegetable patch and by the time it was nearing harvest time, I’d have been unable to tend to my babies, or bring them in. By that time, I had serious muscle involvement with my dermatomyositis and could hardly walk, let alone did the earth. So the feeling I had to not plant out that year was very prophetic.
But this brings me to this year, 2013. I really want to get my vegetable patch going again. It’s good the ground has had a year break, but I so miss growing stuff.
It took me 7 years to learn how to grow vegetables and fruit. In those years I learnt when to best plant the seed, how to look after it and tend to its needs. Growing vegetables is a little like rearing children. They need love and care, you can’t neglect them at all.
One of the things I struggled with early on was attack of the butterflies. I learnt quite quickly that unless you net your Brassica, you may as well forget about having cauliflower cheese. But when I did learn to net them, it felt so mean to stop the lovely butterflies getting their lunch, that in the end I always left a few, un-netted ‘sacrificial’ Brassica’s for them – they made short shrift of them, laying their eggs all over them and the caterpillars scoffing the Brassica’s and growing fat.
This year, I don’t think I will be able to extend myself to Brassica, but I am planning on germinating some tomato seeds soon – around mid February is when I start the germination process and it’s usually been successful.
I’ll also put some cucumber seeds in too, I like the small yellow varieties, like this heirloom cucumber.
And I will put a few potatoes in (or tatties as we call them up north). I like the yellow flesh ones like Charlotte. I might put a couple of courgettes in too (Zucchini) they are easy to grow.
And finally a few lettuce, so we can have lettuce, cucumber and tomato sandwiches.
So, dermatomysotistis, you may have cheated us out of our vegetables last year, but this year I will be eating freshly dug potatoes and having delicious salads.
The Liebster Award As part of the Liebster Award, nominees are required to make nominations for the blogs they feel should be recognized. There are so many great blogs to choose from so……where do I begin? There are some bloggers that work diligently to make people think and reflect; I believe that is what bloggers are...
As part of the Liebster Award, nominees are required to make nominations for the blogs they feel should be recognized. There are so many great blogs to choose from so……where do I begin? There are some bloggers that work diligently to make people think and reflect; I believe that is what bloggers are supposed to do. First, a little information about the award and some formalities.
“The Liebster Award is given to up and coming bloggers who have less than 200 followers. The word ” Liebster” comes from German and can mean the sweetest, kindest, nicest, dearest, most beloved, lovely, kind, pleasant, valued, cute, endearing, and welcome.”
The following is a combined response from Suz and Sus:
Eleven random facts about us.
Our answers to the questions posed to us
1. What’s your favourite book?
2. Your favourite film?
3. Do you have any nicknames?
4. Do you play any musical instruments?
5. Have you ever had surgery?
6. What’s your favourite food?
7. What are you afraid of?
8. What’s your proudest moment?
9. Your favourite item of clothing?
10. Your favourite song?
11. Favorite TV Show?
Well today is the first day of 2013. Another year has come and gone – one with lots of challenges, a few tears, lost hopes and a few more endings. I have decided to welcome the new year simply. Reflecting on 2012 I have been very tempted to write it off as one to forget....
Well today is the first day of 2013. Another year has come and gone – one with lots of challenges, a few tears, lost hopes and a few more endings.
I have decided to welcome the new year simply. Reflecting on 2012 I have been very tempted to write it off as one to forget. But when thinking about writing this blog – a few days ago – I concluded that rather than wipe the slate clean I would simply get it into perspective. It is tough love sometimes and I guess I would put 2012 into that category. It wasn’t just the cancer but a range of other very difficult personal and professional challenges that together made 2012 a year I was keen to draw to a close. However, having always subscribed to the view that whatever comes our way is what makes us the people we are, I am resolved to reflect on 2012 as one of those years that in the journey of one’s life, was simply an energy sapping detour. So to 2012 I punctuate with a decisive full stop and poise the pen for the next paragraph of 2013.
Experience has taught me that luck and opportunity are things we make for ourselves. While I am still grappling with a fussy brain, poor memory and no hair I feel as determined as ever to make my own luck and opportunities count this year. I remain positive that this next phase will be a good one – as I am sure many others in the world do.
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